I cried today. In front of everyone. I am damn pissed. It isn't fair that he lets Nurul do what she wants, gets what she wants and get mediocre results but I can't do anything. I'm gonna read the chocolate affair since all I have left is AMath. I think I'm gonna go all quiet after this. I'll definitely talk less. I'm already starting too but that's partially because i expect people to talk to me but they dont so I don't talk and also because I still feel detached from everyone else. I don't know if they know or even care cause I'll keep feeling like a loser/loner until some one 'shows the faintest symptoms' of wanting to talk to me/being interested in what I say. I miss Nisha. But then she'd probably tell me something with that voice and make me feel dumb and I'll probably feel worse. I really want to cry. Everyone's got plans for after exams and obviously, I haven't been invited to any. I'm gonna make this post damn long so people get turned off by the words and won't bother reading this. I don't know how long I cried when I was on the way home, when I got home, when I was sitting on my bed feeling lousy. This isn't my totm cause I had it 2 weeks ago. So now let me emo over the sad state of my lonely and quiet life.

I'm damn dumb cause i lent my calculators to Manprit and I've got tuition tmr and forgot to take it back. damn.