Heart's A Mess
it makes no sense but i'm desperate to connect
May 14, 2009
Motorcycles and taxis, Retreat and Idris.


Today, i was pissed off in the morning but now I'm happy, I was smiling.

Motorcycles and taxis
Why was I pissed off? Cause I was crossing the street (I DONT JAY) and I was walking slowly cause I was very tired, then the green man started to flash and then this motorbike cut in front of me and then a couple taxi honked so I walked faster and mind you, the green man was still flashing so technically it was my right of way and they were supposed to GIVE ME WAY! assholes.

Retreat
Then there was retreat and I teared twice but not full on crying like last year and the year before that... But It was just tearing. LIANA WAS SABOED by Father Simon and that was damn funny haha! I could get abs watching that again. Too bad I didn't have my phone. But I sang and didn't really talk much and by talk I mean share, cause I didn't have a partner seeing as how we were odd numbers. yupp. Then I went home. Walked to the MRT station w Lin Ying and then Ms Puja came up to me to talk about goodbye.

Idris
Then I was alone in the train. But not the whole way cause then I saw Idris and then he came by to talk to me. haha. It was nice to talk to someone after not talking for almost a whole day. SO he was like 'Can I join you?' cause the seat beside me was empty so I was like 'Yeah, sure no problem' Then we just started talking. The conversation starter,"So how are you?" I was laughing cause of thoughts of retreat you know, sharing. So I was like 'Fine. You?'

I: Okay. Mid-years uh?
Q:Oh, no. Mine are over. Today was retreat.
I:What's that? (you can imagine serious curiosity)
Q: Oh just sharing, problems, feelings, stuff like that. You don't have mid-years right? (I was applying contextual knowledge cause Ryan and I talk about it.)
I: Nope. We have common tests up till the end of term but we do have end of years.
Q: Oh. Post-exam activities are annoying. I've got lessons as a PEA.
I: (he laughed) I think I don't like about my school is that we have common tests till the end of term while you all have mid-years (and something else) and when you all finish end of years, we just start.
Q: (Obviously I laughed) Then I was like, OH you know yesterday I had malay oral. It was horrible. (I was thinking I had malay oral and you were talking to me in malay the other time.. haha)
I: Too bad your malay oral wasn't tomorrow or I'd be talking to you in malay.
Both of us laughed.

Course We talked quite a lot but it was superficial stuff cause obviously I wasn't going to delve into the deep with someone whom I've only started talking to last year eventhough he is my cousin's cousin (on the mother's side but i'm on the father's side so we aren't exactly related.)

We also talked about some people we knew, mutually. Haha, that was funny. I was laughing a lot.
I asked him about the people I knew in his school, he asked about Ashley. (He knows all the sec3 RI guys I know, but he didn't know ______. Three guesses who ________ is.)

Then he got off. But I was thinking about our conversation and I was smiling. Hey, like I said, it was nice to talk to someone even if it was just superficial conversation. It almost got deep, but I didn't want it to be like that. On the train. haha.





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