it makes no sense but i'm desperate to connect
January 26, 2011
FUCK YEA!
AHFIULGDVBAF:QIOUNFIOGFQHNEFUOIGNKHKDSJGFBYQVTGFBDNFJQHEGFBGNMADFHQU!!!!
This years is starting out pretty well :) I got great results and got posted to the school of my choice- the school of my DREAMS. I'm very very very thankful <3 div="">
7:15 AM
January 25, 2011
I go to bed thinking of you (L)
I haven't written a proper poem in a while. I think I've lost my poem-power since leaving school :/ Which makes me sad cause I feel like writing one now.
6:05 PM
January 23, 2011
I love this cover even though people tell me it's annoying.
9:24 PM
January 17, 2011
(L) U GUYS.
I LOVE THIS SONG!
2:58 PM
January 12, 2011
I LAUGHED LIKE CRAZY, I LOVE LUAN
11:32 PM
January 11, 2011
I should've posted this yesterday but :/
So O level results are out...
And it's safe to say that I did pretty well. I suppose, not as well as I had intended but it's still good nonetheless.
I don't know how I did it but I did and 8 points is rather satisfying. All thanks to Him and I don't mean to sound ungrateful
but I don't think I deserve what I got. I did party and slack quite a bit this year and especially during the O level period itself.
To be fair, I did put in effort and I do have some smarts. It worked out. I'm just a little weirded out by my results.
Here's a break down of what I got:
English- A1 (Thank God, I was desperately counting on this)
English Lit- A1 (BY SOME GOD-GIVEN MIRACLE, given how I always get C5/6 for lit :/)
Combined Humanities (SS/Geog)- A2 ( ANOTHER GOD-GIVEN MIRACLE since I have never passed that damned subject the whole time I've been taking it)
Math- A1 (As expected, Praise God)
A Math- A1 (Again, as expected so Praise be to Him)
Physics- B3 (This was disappointing, considering how I usually always get A1s for physics and was banking on getting A1 again:/ but it's his plan so Praise God)
Chemistry- A2 (THANK GOD because I was seriously stressed for this :/ I dropped to C5 for prelims and getting my distinction back was pretty satisfying)
Drama- B3 (Wasn't as good as I hoped it would be but then again, I'm not that great an actress. Thanks to Him for giving me a reasonable grade anyway :))
Higher Malay- D7 (Now, I thought that I might AT LEAST get a C6 but I didn't. I failed and I think it's His way of telling me that I shouldn't be so quick to give up my mother tongue)
I got a C5 for normal malay te year before so :/
I'm grateful for my grades (haha, gradeful ^^)
To all my friends who didn't get what they wanted (in a bad way), be at peace and trust in Him. His plans for us are bigger than we can comprehend. Make the best of what we have.
Be grateful that you're still living and breathing and being with the ones you love because every day you get is another chance to be better.
I sound so holy moly here and I appologise if it's a little hypocritical of me. I'm just really grateful that he hasn't forgotten me or left me alone and astray.
Inspired by Kelly, I wrote some haikus for those who are feeling depressed and need some one there for them, you guys always have me ^^
Got what I needed,
It was just what I deserved,
I'm really thankful.
Do not be afraid,
you will always have a friend
in me, I love you :)
I am here for you,
We will journey .
Please, trust in me, friend.
10:47 AM
January 07, 2011
It's only been three days.
Three days since I re-discovered The Used's Empty With You. I love the song because I can totally relate to the lyrics. That and it's good music. The only downside of repeatedly listening to this one song is the loneliness that's beginning to sink in. First day of January and I finally got over the break up and him but now, no one lives in my heart any more. Sure, I love my family and my friends but ever since puberty, this will sound really weird/horny/pathetic/idek, I've never not had a crush on anyone. Knowing myself, I don't get attached to any famous person just because they're insanely good-looking. Yeah, Cole Mohr is super hot and has a great body. I just don't see myself as "Mrs. Cole Mohr", y'know? So now I'm walking with a massive void in me.
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I'm feeling guilty cause I haven't been playing on my bass for a while. I played with it a little this morning but it's not enough. I don't really have any mood to do much anymore so all I'm doing is listening to Empty With You and reading the marginally sad and depressing stories I picked up at the library on Tuesday. I'm in a funk and this soul-sucking air needs to be cleared. Only the forecast suggests it could get worse; results on Monday and as Idris puts it, "a slip of paper so powerful it can bring great joy or great depression." I just hope I DON'T sink into depression which is something that will fairly likely happen because there is so much pressure for me to do well. Believing and knowing I can do it is one thing, actually succeeding is another. This fragile heart scares easily but I'm gonna comfort myself knowing that despite everything that happens Aal Izz Well.
"I haven't lost anything except my mind...
I haven't wasted a thing except my time...
&I could be right here empty with you...
Let's twist the knife till they can't stop bleeding."
Labels: I'm guilty, If you need a confession
4:02 PM
January 06, 2011
I'm a statue, baby. Knock me out!
Yeesterday was pretty darn awesome! I went reverse bungee-ing at Clarke Quay with Tharanii, Ping En and Shi Pei. It was a random group of people but I had a good time :) Oh the adrenaline I felt after the ride was exhilarating if i had the guts to go again, I would. I was a little dizzy after that and I had a pretty bad headache and wanted to puke before bed but it was still an enjoyable experience, some what. Haha.
TODAY was the best post-O's day I've ever had, apart from ice-skating for the first time on my birthday. We had a Bollywood Movie Marathon at Saira's house, the 5/6 of Rarinina. Shim had a wedding thing so she couldn't make it :( but it was still pretty fun :D We watched 3 Idiots, which Ying had apparently watched 4 times before, American Desi, which was pretty funny and I knew I was going to enjoy because my song was playing and Kal Penn was acting (hehe), Singh Is Kinng, just for the soundtrack, and Chak De India, which we all thoroughly enjoyed being the feminists we are. Haha. It was Indian themed and Saira gave us a set of bangles and a bhindi each which we had to wear the moment we stepped into her house, haha. It was fun getting into the spirit of things. We even ordered tandoori chicken pizza for lunch! Saira's grandma fried up some samosas which were mighty tasty though a tad spicy for me for some reason. Being Indian, she fried up damn a lot of samosas which we obviously couldn't finish, lmao. We laughed a lot and I was more care-free than I had been in a long while. I'm glad we had this day to spend together especially since Ying and Shim will be leaving for Australia soon :( Good times. Too bad no one had a camera :((
In case you were wondering, this is my song:
7:59 PM
January 02, 2011
Millionaires- Alcohol
Go ahead, buy me a drink.
You won't get laid.
Come get fuct up!
Gimme my alcohol.
Let's get fuct up!
A-L-C-O-H-O-L
1:01 PM
What's up?
I'm watching the tape of Friday Night Smack Down for New Year's Eve. I'm excited for the tag-team match. Haha. Edge + Rey Mysterio is gna be AWESOME :DD The only thing I like about Alberto Del Rio are the cars he enters with. Haha. Can you imagine being ref when Kane's in the ring? Freaky.
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Okay, I'm also simultaneously watching the Arsenal match :D The commentator is American, not English... weird. Haha. I never get to see them score :( I feel like that character Keanu Reeves played in that movie where he taught ghetto kids baseball. D':
OH! OH! THEY SCORED, FYEAHNASRI :D
Wilshere, your leg okay, yeah?
I want to learn an Arsenal song/cheer leh. haha
OMG, WILSHERE WEARS 19 ON HIS 19TH BIRTHDAY. My sister turned 19 on the 19th. so cool.
3-0 to Arsenal (Y) one guy just shouted "OWN GOAL" in the background. What a bastard, ahahahahahahahahahahahahah
Birmingham's manager shouting instructions while sounding like a choking seal...
YEAH ARSHAVIN AND DENILSON ARE PLAYING :D
Poor Wilshere won't get to bag a birthday goal.
Arshavin has nice hair, hahaha. My post isn't going to be very cohesive so if you're reading, I do appologise.
Haha "Fabregas is a World Cup winner already!" They were talking about how Fabby already has 200 PL appearances as of today, at only 23.
FUCK YEAH 3-0 :DDDDD
I gave up on wrestling, too tired. G'night bitches :D
2:30 AM