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January 07, 2011
It's only been three days. Three days since I re-discovered The Used's Empty With You. I love the song because I can totally relate to the lyrics. That and it's good music. The only downside of repeatedly listening to this one song is the loneliness that's beginning to sink in. First day of January and I finally got over the break up and him but now, no one lives in my heart any more. Sure, I love my family and my friends but ever since puberty, this will sound really weird/horny/pathetic/idek, I've never not had a crush on anyone. Knowing myself, I don't get attached to any famous person just because they're insanely good-looking. Yeah, Cole Mohr is super hot and has a great body. I just don't see myself as "Mrs. Cole Mohr", y'know? So now I'm walking with a massive void in me. *** I'm feeling guilty cause I haven't been playing on my bass for a while. I played with it a little this morning but it's not enough. I don't really have any mood to do much anymore so all I'm doing is listening to Empty With You and reading the marginally sad and depressing stories I picked up at the library on Tuesday. I'm in a funk and this soul-sucking air needs to be cleared. Only the forecast suggests it could get worse; results on Monday and as Idris puts it, "a slip of paper so powerful it can bring great joy or great depression." I just hope I DON'T sink into depression which is something that will fairly likely happen because there is so much pressure for me to do well. Believing and knowing I can do it is one thing, actually succeeding is another. This fragile heart scares easily but I'm gonna comfort myself knowing that despite everything that happens Aal Izz Well. "I haven't lost anything except my mind... I haven't wasted a thing except my time... &I could be right here empty with you... Let's twist the knife till they can't stop bleeding." Labels: I'm guilty, If you need a confession
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