Heart's A Mess
it makes no sense but i'm desperate to connect
May 28, 2013
Nas



Finally back to blogging after so long :) Had to clean up a little cause things have changed and I didnt like some of the things I posted so they've either been reverted to drafts or deleted. The whole side bar's changed as well cause my tagboard doesn't function anymore, hahaha and my friends blogs have gone unused. I don't know why I'm actually recording these changes considering how there isn't anyone who actually reads this still. I guess it's just for myself then. So that I can come back and remember all this.


This handsome man in the picture is Samuel :)
We've been dating for almost a year and a half and it's been pretty amazing. We've been through so much together and I am grateful to have him with me. Sammy's a wonderful person and I want to be like him. He's thoughtful and honest and loving and kindhearted and mature. The way he loves me is unimaginable, unparalleled. I've dated a few boys previously and in all honesty, he is nothing like them. He puts me before himself and he treats me so well. I don't know if he'll ever see this but if he is reading, Sammy, I love you. I want to grow and learn how to love him the same way he loves me. I want to be better than I am right now because I know he deserves nothing less. I want to make him feel everything he's made me feel because how I feel about him is greater than any emotion or sensation I have ever felt. I don't want him to hurt or be insecure anymore. I want him to see how amazing he is and understand that he is so special and means more to me than I can say or show. I look forward to being by his side for a very long time, as long as he wants and needs me there. Here's to you, Sammy baby. May our love continue to flourish and grow. Amen.

On a side note, I'll be starting school in July as part of the inaugural class of the Yale- NUS College here in Singapore. I am tremendously excited and will prolly post more updates here in time to come. 

xx





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