Pick apart the pieces of your heart.

July 02, 2013

One Last Time

I miss you so much. Hurts when we fight and when you dont text after. It's all my fault but I feel like asking for your forgiveness will cross some kind of line that will push you further away from me. When you hurt me, I forgive you as quickly as you cut and I forget just as fast. You still beg me to forgive you until I say I do but why is it that I feel like I cant do the same with you? I never really thought us being so different would be so bad but then, I never really think most of the time.

I never said no to when you chose to meet up with her. I didnt like it but I never said no and you would go anyway. How is this any different? With her, she's concrete, an actual threat. I still dont understand why you cant compromise with me on this. I've never told you not to do anything you wanted to.

I dont remember ever making that promise to you but I trusted you when you said I did. It's not that I dont want to honour the promise either. I just dont want to feel left out in a new group of friends where I'm still trying to find my place in and I know from experience that missing out on all these things will push me further behind everyone else. They'll have memories to share with each other and I'll be stuck in a bubble. But all this, you'd say, are just excuses to justify me going for it. I wish you could understand.

You're tired of this and I am too. You tell me love is give and take. I feel like I give everything but you say all I do is take. So maybe we should stop giving and taking. Maybe we should stop all this. Maybe we should just

11:39 AM

Heart's A Mess it makes no sense but i'm desperate to connect
	July 19, 2013 another year of you in a stay-in camp, another year of only getting to see you on the weekends, another year of feeling like time with you isnt enough, another year of heart break, another year of wishing I had more 10:19 AM July 02, 2013 One Last Time I miss you so much. Hurts when we fight and when you dont text after. It's all my fault but I feel like asking for your forgiveness will cross some kind of line that will push you further away from me. When you hurt me, I forgive you as quickly as you cut and I forget just as fast. You still beg me to forgive you until I say I do but why is it that I feel like I cant do the same with you? I never really thought us being so different would be so bad but then, I never really think most of the time. I never said no to when you chose to meet up with her. I didnt like it but I never said no and you would go anyway. How is this any different? With her, she's concrete, an actual threat. I still dont understand why you cant compromise with me on this. I've never told you not to do anything you wanted to. I dont remember ever making that promise to you but I trusted you when you said I did. It's not that I dont want to honour the promise either. I just dont want to feel left out in a new group of friends where I'm still trying to find my place in and I know from experience that missing out on all these things will push me further behind everyone else. They'll have memories to share with each other and I'll be stuck in a bubble. But all this, you'd say, are just excuses to justify me going for it. I wish you could understand. You're tired of this and I am too. You tell me love is give and take. I feel like I give everything but you say all I do is take. So maybe we should stop giving and taking. Maybe we should stop all this. Maybe we should just 11:39 AM	Q♥ Archive August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 May 2011 May 2013 July 2013 November 2013 December 2013 February 2014 April 2014 ♥ untouched. Credits : OSL/ICON