Heart's A Mess
it makes no sense but i'm desperate to connect
February 07, 2014
the short end


now i'm back to being tired and disinterested in everything. dance doesn't help either because my inadequacies in one thing are replaced by feelings of inadequacy in another. i took a walk to try and clear my head, with the cool air and great company, but to no avail. i can't focus on work, i can't sleep. nothing i can do will make things better. i am useless, absolutely useless.





10:10 PM
February 04, 2014
Happy


These two days have been exceptionally wonderful and I am happier than I've been in a long while. There are many reasons though none I can put my finger on. All I'd like to do is say thank you to everything animate or otherwise that has led to me feeling this way. My soul is at peace and my heart is filled with many pleasant things. (my tummy too cause Bryant helped get me cream puffs! ^^)





4:57 PM